#7. THE ONE ABOUT CARRYING MY PARENTS' SHAME.

I think when you grow up knowing your parents didn't have the perfect marriage, or relationship, you kind of start carrying that embarrassment. Especially when you feel like people know what happened.

I noticed I was carrying their shame when I would feel awkward around them. I couldn't stand being around them for longer than an hour. I felt like I was embarrassed being in their presence.

And that's because I knew they were struggling through infidelity. And I know because one of them told me. I know... what a thing to tell your child right?

Anyway, I noticed being around them made me feel so uncomfortable ever since I found out. Whenever they would talk to each other even with the slightest impatience, I would feel like my chest was tightening.

Then one day I realized I'm carrying their shame for them. And that's when I noticed how much I knew that I shouldn't have known.

So I think I need to process that. I don't know how, but I will probably go to therapy for that.